I went on 2 college tours today and i loved them both.  the problem is i technically only loved 1 part of each of them.  too bad you can't pick apart pieces of colleges and put them together to make one perfect college.  If i could do that, my college would be:
Hofstra University's Campus + Wagner College's Academic Program + Temple University's Tuition = My Dream School!!

Too bad I can't alter reality.... but I'm really not sure whats more important... the residential life or the curriculum. 
Any advice would be greatly apreciated  THANKS!
LoveAlways ~Sally~

This was an assignment of mine... I was to retell a Fairy Tale in the style of Hemingway as if it was told by Jake Barnes from the Sun Also Rises...
ENJOY!
Love Always ~Sally~

I find myself somewhat blessed, for I have never experienced death up close (knock on wood).  but i have witnessed it twice in the past 2 years.  once last year when a fellow teammate on my tennis team lost control of her car in the rain and crashed into a tree. and again yesterday.  yesterday night, while most people were out celebrating and drinking, a boy i was once friends with, took his own life with a gun to his head.  if there is one thing i fear in this world, its suicide.  perhaps i fear it because i don't understand it.

I have a confession.  I am afraid of growing up.  now i do not mean this to sounds stupid but for those of you that do not know,I'm a junior in high school and at the point in life where i have to make all of my future decisions.  as far as i know, at this stage in my life I'm supposed to see myself maturing and I'm supposed to chose the rest of my life.  but the truth is, i don't feel ready to do this.   I love independence and being on my own yet, i don't see myself living on my own.  i cant wait until college, yet i can't seem to figure out which college to go to.  and i know this is probably dumb but after seeing the movie "Accepted" i can't help but wonder weather or not being rejected from every school is possible. 

I dont want to sound depressing or pathetic or anything, but i just needed to let out all of my feelings right now.  you see alittle over a year ago my really good friend (and at the time boy friend) was sent to a boarding school in Montana.  i wasnt alowed to say good bye to him and i havnt spoken to him since the day before he left (which was our one month aniversary).  now this is where things got complicated.. im now best friends with his little brother who is in my school and a grade younger than i am in.  his brother always tells me how his brother is doing... and he told me that his brother (the one that was sent away) is home for christmas.  now my head is filled with different emotions.  i meen im happy hes home but i know hes going back in a week.  but worst of all, i keep thinking that he just doesnt want to see me.