is it possible to reach a place were you teach yourself not to feel love? this is the question i ask myself. i believe that sometimes i/we make excuss in order not to get hurt, but life in general is messy. how do i know i guy is geniune? is it when he shows me/us attention? i don't know. from my experinces i know that in the beginning you get more attention then you can handle, then gradually when they get used to you they change. do females do this also? i have so many questions i know; am just trying to make sense of life.

last thurs i did soo well on a call, i even got a save; i think i was too excited that i ended the call with "thank you for calling SPRINT", then i was like i mean cablevision.  my mentor was cracking up and i was so scared i was going to get in trouble for it . see! i talked about making a mistake so much that i actually did. i have learnt my lesson so i would always try to think and talk positive so that it can happen...

i have to take my first call today and i know am going to mess up, i might even mess up the greeting by using my pervious company , i hope i don't...