So an issue arose, from the ashes below,
not thinking too in depth, 
I just like the prune juice and let it flow,
but now I consiously contemplate on the matters at hand,
and I find myself in a conundrum,
not knowing what to do in my own land.

Can i live in a world like this?
Where pain and suffering reign?
Where little children starve and are hungry?
Can I live in this world, knowing that the innocent are convicted,
and where the murders rome free?
Can I live in this world, where petifiles are not profiled.
yet in still the colored man walks down the street in fear?
This is not about race this is not about gender, this is about the wrongs that are never right in this world.

Now don't get my words twisted, and don't flip it, read this for what it is straght forward with no crookedness.

Its funny to me how everyone in my life has the right to say what they want, whether it be a joke, something serious or even express when they are hurt.  But if i express myself, it is taken as offensive it is taken as i should keep my mouth shut, but why should I, because when i say something i have conviction in my voice to the point where i know that i will not back down until you relize that you are either right wrong, or maybe should just be fuckin indifferent.  All i have to say is fuck all of you.  I

I can not explain to how i feel................ My emotions are in a whirlwind right now.  I try to remain calm try to keep a smile on my face, try to not have ppl asking me constantly what is wrong...... i try not to cry. try not to think of the last time i heard his voice. how he said to me" baby im ok, but they have to do surgery on my brian" why was his voice so weak, why didnt i go home then? I had faith he would make it.  I wanted him to make it................