Mmmm, was standing outside looking at the cars pass and found myself worrying about things, analyzing them.  And then I thought, there's not much to worry about really.  I worry a lot about being able to keep my job, whether I'm financially safe, how I appear to people, and a whole list of etc.s.  Don't worry about any of it, cause I'm here right now.  I'm pretty ok.  My dad has become an expert at this.  He doesn't worry about anything anymore (except maybe myself and my brothers), not his work, not his house, it appears that he worries about nothing.  I want also to be such a warrior.

It existed then, but doesn't exist anymore.  I'm letting it go...a song the vehicle for the ride, driving along a warm sunlit pasture.  The grass, long and dry, tan from the sun, waves goodbye.  An old car, from the 40s.  I don't know the name of the driver, he's an older man, with dark skin and gray hair.  With each bump in the dirt road, my body shakes, and, in turn, my mind instinctively opens up.  Where we're driving, I don't know, but my guide does.  All I know is that he's taking me far away.

Surreal

Someday I'll write a computer program to simulate human thought.  It seems that a simulation like this could reveal things that we perhaps don't understand about the human mind.  What interesting conclusions about life might an intelligent mind simulation come to?  Might this program become the foundation for a new religion?  The program would have to be introduced to experience to learn; however, by using a computer, we could introduce a wide variety of experiences much faster than we do in real life.  It would be a brain, without any of the randomness that humans experience, which means it would be entirely logical, unless, of course, it learned to be illogical (perhaps finding a use for randomness).  It would only be illogical if there was some purpose in it, unless it became self destructive.  What would make it self destruct?  Beliefs I think.  Some belief that there is reward gained from self destruction.