I find myself somewhat blessed, for I have never experienced death up close (knock on wood). but i have witnessed it twice in the past 2 years. once last year when a fellow teammate on my tennis team lost control of her car in the rain and crashed into a tree. and again yesterday. yesterday night, while most people were out celebrating and drinking, a boy i was once friends with, took his own life with a gun to his head. if there is one thing i fear in this world, its suicide. perhaps i fear it because i don't understand it.
i cant help but find suicide selfish. yet it may not be. i find it an act of desperation and weakness yet he had to have strength to pull the trigger. his poor family. his poor friends. i cant help but think of how much pain they are in right now. i haven't really spoken to this boy in well over a year, and i am left with much sadness. i cannot imagine how those who spend everyday with him feel right now. i send my condolences to his friends and family. And to you Sean, Rest in Peace my past time friend. "May angels lead you in" -JimmyEatWorld-