I dont want to sound depressing or pathetic or anything, but i just needed to let out all of my feelings right now. you see alittle over a year ago my really good friend (and at the time boy friend) was sent to a boarding school in Montana. i wasnt alowed to say good bye to him and i havnt spoken to him since the day before he left (which was our one month aniversary). now this is where things got complicated.. im now best friends with his little brother who is in my school and a grade younger than i am in. his brother always tells me how his brother is doing... and he told me that his brother (the one that was sent away) is home for christmas. now my head is filled with different emotions. i meen im happy hes home but i know hes going back in a week. but worst of all, i keep thinking that he just doesnt want to see me.
the thing is, im not expecting to still date him but he was a really good friend of mine. i really miss him. now i feel like everyone of his other friends is keeping something from me about him. for example, i imed one of his friends (who im kindof friends with as well) and all i said was "hi" and his exact resonse was "ooo, dave(the friend)". thats it. when i asked him wat he was talking about he didnt respond. the thing is i hate this feeling. i hate thinking that hes home but doesnt want to talk to me. this is really wierd for me because its not like me at all. you see im the kind of girl that doesnt believe in long term relationships in high school. i go into relationships knowing that after a month we will break up. but with Dave it was different, because i wasnt planning on breaking up with him and even if we would have... we still would have remained friends. its been over a year and i still think about him... a lot. even if its not in the boy friend way. I just really miss my friend.
I'm sorry if i sound really depressing...Im just a little upset... i guess you can say im a little Blue.
Love Always~Sally~